【這是何等的『女兒』！】

 Dearest Mommy and Daddy：

   Hi! I just came back from the young people's meeting on Saturday.

～享受嗎？在讀出埃及記生命讀經嗎？

   It's almost been a week since I'm back in Canada.

I've been doing quite a lot of thinking this week, because this time coming to Canada was a little quite different from the last time when I first came here.

～你是長大了，開始想些較不同的事了（對了，有沒寫信給阿公呢？）......

   Last year when I came, it was the first time I left Taiwan in 7 years, and the first time I left my family, a lot of new things going on, full of excitements, so I wasn't sad about leaving Taiwan.

And I never knew what it was like for being away from my family for a whole year.

～是的，可以體會的，妳對那兒強烈的『思鄉之情』，期待、興奮......沖淡了你離家的『鄉愁』。

   My school life, everything, was pretty easy and I didn't really had any pressure on my school work or anything else too.

～從小，妳就滿獨立、自主，不太需要我們操心，一直盯妳；這是我們放心讓妳獨自前往的原因之一。只是，沒想到功課對妳來說，竟會這麼輕鬆自在，優遊自得！

   I did miss you guys last year, but not very strong, just because I didn't see you in such a long time.

～對阿，我也是在三月去看你回還來後，比之前更更想念妳優！

   But this year, I feel that it is completely different from last year.

～哦，這對妳來說真是很大很大的改變？！

   I've spent for only two months with you guys, and then the rest of the ten months I am entirely on my own.

～送妳回去前，想到妳又要離開我們好久的時間，裡面不由得『心酸』了起來。但主提醒我：『要為著她能跟你們相聚兩個月的時間感謝阿！』果真，我幾乎立刻從『酸』轉成『甜』阿！

   And believe me, school has definitely become so much more challenging than ever.

～人生，似乎就是充滿一步步挑戰的接力賽程，裡、外預備的如何，打氣加油的人──天時、地利、人和.....，對這賽程都具有相當關鍵的影響力！ J

   The night I arrived, when I was trying to sleep, I thought of you guys, and I started to cry, thinking about how should I live another 10 months without my family, since I already knew how it felt.

～孩子，怕思念妳太多，眼淚太濕，我盡量不讓自己太『空』的想妳......

   I really cried for quite a long time, for I really really was sad about the fact that I am going to spend another year on my own without my family.

～乖，乖，媽媽『秀修』！

And on Tuesday, I cried again too.

Wednesday, I stilled cried a little bit.

Thursday was ok.

   But when I thought I was just getting over it, the teachers from my IB courses were explaining about the program, which sounded very hard.

～從未有的考驗呀！

   For Chemistry, you would have to design labs on your own under the topic given by the teacher. In grade 12, you would be going somewhere else which you would have to do a 

lab under a topic chosen by yourself, and doing all the research and stuff all by yourself.

～不要害怕，不要驚惶！『For Jehovah your God is with you ! 』

   For Geography, you would have to go out too in grade 12 for a field study.

～哦，『田野調查』哦，伊萱姊姊已過這一年也去過幾次，她說好好玩呢:D

   And English, the teacher said he's gonna make us suffer.

～或許他是要嚇唬你們，就算是真的，就把『吃苦』當『吃補』吧！

   And Our math teacher said, this is going to be even more busier than university students.

～這樣，以後讀大學時，就駕輕就熟了。

   At the May of 2012, which I will be grade 12 that year, we will have our IB exams, which is based on everything we learned in IB from grade 11-12.

   The full mark for every subject except TOK is 7 (the full mark of tok is 3), and will be a total of 45 for all the subjects.

～我相信妳沒問題的！

   Earlier in January or February or March, the teacher from your current class will give you predicted scores of how you will do on your IB exams.

   It is based on the effort, honesty, and how hard they think you've worked on the IB program since grade 11.

And most of the time the predicted scores means more important than the scores you actually get from the exams, because if you get a predicted score of 32 out of 45

～『按部就班、勤奮、踏實、努力』──這是我最近常給Jaspe的鼓勵的話──也送給妳！

  
   you would absolutely get early acceptances from universities. (including ubc, sfu, those good ones)

So our math teacher said "your goal is not to get into universities, but to make the teachers believe that you can do it"

～YOU’LL MAKE  IT ! ! :D

   They all made it sound so hard, and honestly, I am so afraid.

～有緊張是好事；把壓力轉成能力阿！

   And just I am about to get over about missing my family, it all starts over again.

Because I really have no idea of how I am going to get through all of these challenges without mommy, daddy, jasper, and victor by my side, like being right there with me.

～邊思念，邊禱告、告訴主.......主必加力給妳！

   Of course I know that you would 100% be supporting me in taiwan, and we could still pray on skype, but its just now the same on skype as it is when you are right beside me in person.

～J！

   And I think I am really going to need you guys especially in these two years.

～We need the Lord especially in these two years!

   So yesterday morning when I was walking to school, I decided that its still ok if i dont go to the summer school of truth this (coming?)year, because I want to spend the precious 2 months with you guys.

～oh,my good, dear gaughter !

   And I dont know why, today when I came home after the meeting, I've been thinking even more about you guys, and I started crying all over again.

   I cried pretty hard, suddenly realizing I really dont have any chances to spend a long period of time with u guys, since I definitely wont be going to college in taiwan or stay,

～分離是遲早的事──妳有妳的人生和夢想；有得，也難免有失；只希望最後還是得的多！

   so i just kept on crying, thinking of what mom said on the phone to me on the night i left, and the scenes of dad at the airport, and what victor said to me of

   how there would be an empty bed on top of him every morning he wakes up, and nobody at home waiting for him when he gets home after school.

～我們人真是太有限了，在這就不能再那兒......!

   The more I think of these, the more I cry.

～......oh! Lord Jesus !

   I know there will be saints here supporting me and I definitely know I can always count on the Lord, but I think I am still gonna really need you guys.

～oh! Lord Jesus ! HOW WE NEED YOU ,LORD !

～HOW I WANT TO BE WITH HER !

   But I also know that I really cant go back to taiwan now, for it would be a waste of money and time for me already being here for a year.

   And Dad, i think i would like to go to the full time training in taipei, now, because thats probably the last chance I can spend the longest period of time with u guys :(  (still crying at this instance)

～AMEN ! THANKS ! 

   I know saying these are really useless, cause Dad 99% won’t come to Canada any more, and I wont let mom come here and leave dad alone in taiwan,

～別太傷心，DAD會找機會去看妳的......！

   but I just wanted you guys to know how important you are to me, and how much I need you.

～這是何等的女兒，愈長大，愈需要父母.....

   I would still really need your company especially in my grade 12 year though :(

～I HOPE I’LL SPEND LONGER TIME TO BE WITH YOU THAN BEFORE......

   I Love You so so much.

You are the greatest parents in the world!

～阿慧，YOU ARE MY LOVEST,DEAREST GIRL !

   I Miss You!

                                                 With Love,                                                                                                                                                                                                          

                                                                 Your daughter,                                                                                                                            

                                                                                          Deborah

～LET’S  MISS, LOVE, AND PRAY FOR WE FAMILY ALL!

～THANK  YOU ,  LORD ! !

                                                       LOVED 
                                                                MOM ( in Taipei )
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